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A Little Too Much

Hello everyone,
about to do a little rambling since I feel my absent on my blog needs an excuse. I just want to get some things off my chest. And since I've changed it to more of a lifestyle blog rather than just fashion, I going to let it all out. Even though they might not seem as big problems (and they aren't they're really basic small problems that's going on right now), to you and I'm sure I'm about to sound petty or just over thinking a tiny situation. But, oh well. I want to let out. So first I not doing good in 3 classes and it's so hard for me catch up. I have lacrosse everyday, whether it be a game or practice, it takes up a lot of time. And I don't get home till about 9 then I have to take a shower and then it's 9:30-45. I have to go to bed around 10 or I just become a whole different person in the morning and it's not pretty. I try to wake up early like at 4 or 5, but my body can never get up. So really I have no time for homework or studying. I try to do some at lunch but lunch isn't that long and I do need to eat/socialize. I feel overwhelmed from everything. And the sad part is that my classes aren't even honors. Which makes me feel like I'm doing baby work and I can't even do that. How am I suppose to make into NYU? Ugh. Just too much. Thennnn I can't even write a paper or little paragraph anymore for english or journalism class. I feel like my brain is just so mushy and tired and doesn't want to work. I call myself a writer but I can't even finish a paragraph. I try to be positive and just remember all of this will past, but I need to get back into reality and realize school creates my future, my future at NYU, at Teen Vogue, just in life in general. I need to get back into the swing of things and sports is not helping. I don't regret joining because I've met some wonderful people and had great experiences from it, but it's so hard to juggle school and lacrosse. Also, I feel like I'm losing purpose. I love being creative, drawing, poetry, singing, acting - I 'm not doing none of it right now and I feel so incomplete. I'm sad none of it is in my schedule next year and it's all I think about. I think God is calling me to get back into my forms of art but it's so hard for me to do so. I can't even sing good anymore and I haven't been up to writing poetry or finishing my book.

And the stress will remain till I finish this paper that I haven't even yet started and it's due Monday. And re-do my history and chemistry test. Hopefully this week goes by quick and pray for it not to be so tight.

I am still going to stay positive because I have faith, and with God all things are possible.

I will be back Monday or Tuesday with positive vibes. This is not like me at all, but I just needed to let it out somewhere.

Have a great rest of the weekend loves ;)

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